Musings from the Mosh Pit…

Thoughts. Tales. Travels. Whatever.

This one goes out to… June 12, 2012

Now My Heart Is Full is the first Morrissey song I ever fell in love with.  My favorite line goes: “Tell all of my friends, I don’t have too many…”.  It’s not much of a killer lyric I know but I’m an introvert by nature and those words spoke true to me.  We’re all free to decipher the possible meanings of our favorite songs and I read in a fan forum that this song is (probably) about suicide.  I didn’t think of it that way but the reasons given made sense.  No, I have never contemplated suicide, I never will, but this is still my favorite song (now one of many!).

I’m still basking in the after glow of Morrissey’s Manila concert.  It was such a profound experience to see and hear the man whose music has meant (and still means) so much to me.  It made me remember the friend who first brought his music into my life.  When I first met her we instantly clicked with our common love for rock music, sarcastic humor, good movies, writing letters, books, funny comic strips and coffee among other things.  She would tell me stories about The Smiths and Morrissey and would often recite their lyrics with such panache it made me so envious that I wished I knew those lines by heart as well.  The lyrics were amazing but it took a while before I took a shine to the songs.  I’m glad she never gave up on me–giving me cds of her favorite songs, writing letters with lyrics on them and sharing her videos on her ipod.  Little by little I was hooked for life!  It was wonderful to have someone to share these things with.  When I was finally immersed in the music as much as she was, we dreamt of being able to watch him live and possibly be even one of the lucky few who get to hold his hand.

Because of one thing and another, we’ve lost touch over the years.  Life happens and some things we just have no control over.  I thought about her during the concert and I wished we could’ve shared that experience together.  A few days afterward I decided to reconnect with her.  I honestly didn’t expect her to write back so I was both surprised and glad to have received a happy reply.  She shared her concert stories, the best one being, “Morrissey held my hand!”.  I was so happy that her dream came true.  She deserved that moment.  A coffee date may soon follow…who knows?  Morrissey’s advice: Hold Onto Your Friends.

The exact moment of dream coming true

So I would like to dedicate this song, this video, this post, this moment to my friend.  You might be sick of hearing it already but thank you for sharing this with me.  Note to friend: Jack The Ripper was also a contender for this spot and you know how much we love that song too!


song: Now My Heart Is Full

album: Vauxhall and I

video: from carmenbozia on youtube


Morrissey live in Manila May 20, 2012

I know it’s over, still I cling…

Sure, I wrote down “See Morrissey live” in my bucket list but to be quite honest, it was one of those things that I doubt would ever happen.  Last sunday, May 13, I got to cross that off the list.  It really was a dream come true.  The best concert I’ve ever been to…and dare I say it, the best concert I’ll ever see.  I’m sure that those of us who love Morrissey do so for various reasons.  Many of us have waited years for this moment.  Truly, the man did not disappoint.  There have been many articles recently in the local papers written by fellow fans sharing their experience of that day.  And I, like them, would like to say the same thing: Thank you, Morrissey.  Thank you for being you and thank you for your songs.  They make me feel so loved.

What goes through your mind when you hear an audience sing along to the darker stuff?

Morrissey: I’m absolutely electrified. Because I live alone with those songs, and they came from the absolute edge of the emotional cliff. When a crowd sings something that really means something…for me it’s stirring. Well, it’s not stirring, no. There are no words. It’s just getting it out. And even if it’s only just for that moment when you’re in the audience on that night, you’re not alone. (2004)

If you’d like to see some beautiful photos from the concert, you can visit , , and the Morrissey live in Manila facebook page.


My Playlist: Then & Now May 29, 2010

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A friend recently posted her playlist from the 90’s.  You can check out her post right here:

Because of this I’ve been inspired to look back & reminisce on the music & bands that I’ve listened to growing up.  With her permission and blessings, I now present my playlist from the years gone by…

Late 80’s

  • Debbie Gibson – My earliest recollection of buying a cassette was her album “Out of the Blue”.  I remember dancing to “Shake Your Love” at our 5th grade Christmas party–& sumi was in all white with her blue tin can bag (yung may airplane?).  C’mon admit it, you all loved “Lost in your Eyes” and at one point you even tried dancing the steps to “Electric Youth”.

Come to think of it…I never had ripped jeans growing up…

  • New Kids On The Block – The band that pretty much took over my entire adolescent life! I’ve liked other boy bands in recent years but none of them could ignite the same flames that I had for NKOTB (well, Boyzone came pretty close..right ula?)  Donnie was my favorite. I enjoyed the ride along with other friends who loved them too. *ehem*ula*ehem* True, they may have been nearing the end of their career when they performed here in Manila…but we didn’t care.  And years later, after seeing them reunite on The today Show, I can’t help the fact that they still bring a smile on my face.

woo-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh…hangin’ tough!

  • The Dawn – the first local act I ever loved & worshipped!

The 90’s

It was during this time when I discovered The Beatles.  ABC 5 was a new station back then and they would always run this Beatles documentary courtesy of Steve O’Neal—the same dude who brings in those “oldies” acts at the Araneta.  I soon learned that my mom loved them too and proof of that was the little fan notebook that she made—complete with trading cards & band photos & of course, her record collection (still alive and in mint condition to this day!)  She loved Paul, and I loved John.


The 90’s was the period where I solidified my love for rock music.  That period also saw the birth of my love for British Music, thanks to Brit Pop.  Some of the bands I listened to during this time were:

  • Guns n’ Roses – I pretty much listened to one album only during the summer of 1993 and that was Use Your Illusion I.  I actually had to buy another copy of that album because I’ve worn out my first copy.

This was the only band photo I could find with Gilbey Clarke in it!

  • Bon Jovi – Hey don’t look at me…you couldn’t resist him too during those Keep The Faith years…the manila show was a disaster though…But all in all, “Metal Hair Bands” in the 90’s weren’t that bad…*lighters in the air* “I’ve finally found the love of a lifetime….”

  • Nirvana & Pearl Jam – Ok, I never saw the reason why people made these two awesome bands compete with one another.  Honestly, I was more of a Nirvana fan because I have most of their albums.  My favorite Nirvana song is Lithium and my favorite Pearl Jam song is a toss up between Alive & Daughter.

  • Soundgarden – Their album “Superunknown” was the first cd I ever bought.  It kicked ass back then…& it still kicks ass now.

  • Stone Temple Pilots – I loved Scott Weiland with his red hair & raspy voice.  Sadly though I’ve been hearing stories that he’s quite an a-hole.

  • Green Day – I remember listening to Dookie over & over again just so that I can memorize the songs. I can still sing “When I Come Around” perfectly to this day.

  • Weezer – How can you not love Rivers Cuomo?

  • Oasis – One of my favorite bands ever.  I never cared that people hated them, to me they were simply EFFing cool.  I loved Noel even when he was still a cokehead…but I love him more now as a family man & elder statesman of British rock. (mental note: grabe daw ang work ethic ni noel…he hates being late!)

Noel forever!

  • Wolfgang / Eraserheads – I personally think that pinoy rock was alive & well during the 90’s. These 2 were my most favorite local acts then…but I consider Wolfgang to be my #1.  I never saw the eheads live during those days but when it came to Wolfgang I was always on stalker mode! (especially when my friend Josette & I would watch them play at the Hard Rock Café).

  • Boyzone – Well, I did mention earlier that they came close to NKOTB right? So amidst all these rock bands in the 90’s, Boyzone is the lone boyband that I loved.

Year 2000 – present

  • Incubus – Another one of my favorite bands.  I remember liking the video for Drive but it was only during the release of Morning View that I started collecting their albums.  Honestly, they do write brilliant songs…but it doesn’t hurt that Brandon Boyd is perfect either.

Brandon = Perfect!

  • Hoobastank – You can blame Doug Robb’s abs on this one.

  • Morrissey / The Smiths – Must I even expound on this?

  • Fall Out Boy & My Chemical Romance – Ava & I both watched their shows with little or zero knowledge at all about their songs.  It turned out pretty well since we both had a good time.  So, emo na kami ganon?

Ava: Toro! / Fizz: Iero!

Ok fine. Pete Wentz it is…but Patrick’s cute too…

  • Linkin Park –  I started out really, really liking them…but then I wasn’t so inlove with the 3rd album…sorry guys.

Chesteeeeeerrrrrrr!!!!!! – Ava

And lastly….

  • Slipknot – Again, one of my favorites.  Does it still seem weird that someone like me would love a bunch of guys who look like they’ve taken Halloween way too seriously?  But I never saw the masks as some joke.  I loooooooove these guys!

There’s my Joey in front!


Partying with Dead Popstars May 22, 2010


Route 196

Tonight I went to my second gig ever.  Dead Popstars played at Route 196 along Katipunan Avenue to celebrate Morrissey’s birthday.  The place was jam packed with fellow Smiths fans…there were even 3 brits at the gig…I knew they were brits because they stood in front of me & I could hear their accents! *awesome!*  I went with my super friend Ava & her sister Anna.

They started playing at around 11pm and opened with the song “Shoplifters of the world unite!”…the same words printed on the shirt of lead singer Pogz.  He looked very much like Moz, circa 1980’s that night…complete with the gel-ed  hair & nerdy glasses.

My dodgy shot of Pogz-damn it sucks to be short!

They played for a solid 1.5 hours!  No intermission whatsoever.  Everyone rocked out to songs like: There is a light that never goes out, Ask, Everyday is like sunday, The last of the famous international playboys, Still ill, This charming man, The more you ignore me the closer I get, Panic, First of the gang to die, We hate it when our friends become successful and loads more!

I had 2 beers (I know it’s not much but it’s a first for me!), stood up the whole night, screamed & sang my lungs out, danced, was all sweaty, couldn’t breathe properly & the dude next to me kept screaming “pop! dead! stars! well i wonder! new wave naman!” the entire night…but I didn’t care. It was really nice seeing other people show their love for Moz.  There was even a kid there (about 10 years old) with a Smiths shirt on who came with his mom!

I’ve never seen Morrissey live but tonight, I felt like I had the next best thing.  Dead Popstars rock and Pogz you rule! (it was cute how everyone was greeting him “happy birthday”)

Can’t wait for the next gig!


The official & obligatory concert photo.



The man from Manchester May 20, 2010

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I kick started this week by listening to Morrissey on my ipod. I thought it was appropriate to do so since this Saturday, May 22 is his 51st birthday.

I’ve been listening to Moz for about 7 or 8 years now. I’m not his biggest fan nor his most loyal…those titles are reserved for those who have loved him since 1982 when he first formed The Smiths along with Johnny Marr. I maybe several decades late but boy I sure am glad that someone was kind enough to bring him into my life.

Listening to Morrissey (whether as frontman of The Smiths or as a solo artist), especially when you’re just starting to try him out, can be both easy and difficult.  Easy, because the melodies are always pleasant on the ears. They can be haunting and romantic or fun and whimsical. Difficult because though the melodies may reel you in, once you start listening to his words, they’re a complete 360 degree turn.

Moz in the 80's. Love the nerdy glasses!

Most of the time his words are depressing and sad. He sings about being alone and not being understood. A complete and honest picture of himself—he has never denied that fact. Of course, being the smart & witty man that he is, he may also sing about gruesome murders (Suffer Little Children), psycho serial killers (Jack The Ripper), getting mugged at the fair (Rusholme Ruffians), animal rights (Meat Is Murder) and the arrogance of the only remaining superpower on earth (America Is Not The World). (mental note: we shall not discuss recent lyrics because from what I’ve heard, he’s quite happy with himself now)


Moz in the 90's. Love the shirt!

But the most common theme in his songs is love…or the lack thereof. Could this be the reason why I’ve grown to embrace his songs? That in my personal search I have identified myself with him? Perhaps. But the music is also good company when you just want to be in a dark room, lie down in a fetal position and just cry your heart out (for whatever reason it maybe).

You see, when I listen to him (and you can call me psycho on this one) I truly and honestly feel that someone “gets me”; that in your heart you realize that you are not alone and that there’s someone else out there that’s just like you. It doesn’t matter that after those 3 or 4 minutes of listening to one song you still don’t have the answers…but it’s ok.  It’s going to be ok.

Now don’t think that he’s all doom and gloom. He does have some nuggets of positivity in his music too. Lyrics like:

I may walk home alone but my faith in love is still devout” – Rusholme Ruffians

My love wherever you are, don’t lose faith. I know it’s gonna happen someday to you” – I know it’s gonna happen someday

So yes there are things worse in life than never being someone’s sweetie”- That’s How People Grow Up

There is a light that never goes out”– There is a light that never goes out

The songs are so honest and real that’s why people love them still.

I hope you’ll indulge me now as I share with you my Top 10 favorite Moz songs. The list should be longer but against my will I’ve tried to trim it down. Here goes:

1)  There is a light that never goes out – “And if a double decker bus crashes into us, to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die. And if a ten ton truck kills the both of us, to die by your side well the pleasure and the privilege is mine.”

2)  How soon is now? – “I am human and I need to be loved just like everybody else does”

3)   Jack the ripper – “Crash into my arms, I want you.”

4)  The boy with a thorn in his side – “The boy with a thorn in his side, behind the hatred there lies a murderous desire…for love”

5)  Please, please, please let me get what I want – “So for once in my life let me get what I want. Lord knows it will be the first time.”

6)  Cemetry Gates – “So we go inside and we gravely read the stones. All those people, all those lives, where are they now? With loves and hates and passions just like mine, they were born and then they lived and then they died. Seems so unfair, I want to cry.”

7)  The more you ignore me, the closer I get – “Take the easy way and give in. Oh let me in.”

8)  Now my heart is full – “Tell all of my friends, I don’t have too many.”

9)  Shoplifters of the world unite! – “Tried living in the real world instead of a shell but before I began … I was bored before I even began.”

10) It’s a tie!

a) That joke isn’t funny anymore –“When you laugh about people who feel so very lonely, their only desire is to die. Well, I’m afraid it doesn’t make me smile. I wish I could laugh but that joke isn’t funny anymore. It’s too close to home and it’s too near the bone. More than you’ll ever know.”

b) Stretch out and wait – “Will the world end in the night time? I really don’t know. Will the world end in the day time? I really don’t know. What I do know is we’re here and it’s now. So stretch out and wait.”

Rock on Morrissey!