Musings from the Mosh Pit…

Thoughts. Tales. Travels. Whatever.

This one goes out to… June 12, 2012

Now My Heart Is Full is the first Morrissey song I ever fell in love with.  My favorite line goes: “Tell all of my friends, I don’t have too many…”.  It’s not much of a killer lyric I know but I’m an introvert by nature and those words spoke true to me.  We’re all free to decipher the possible meanings of our favorite songs and I read in a fan forum that this song is (probably) about suicide.  I didn’t think of it that way but the reasons given made sense.  No, I have never contemplated suicide, I never will, but this is still my favorite song (now one of many!).

I’m still basking in the after glow of Morrissey’s Manila concert.  It was such a profound experience to see and hear the man whose music has meant (and still means) so much to me.  It made me remember the friend who first brought his music into my life.  When I first met her we instantly clicked with our common love for rock music, sarcastic humor, good movies, writing letters, books, funny comic strips and coffee among other things.  She would tell me stories about The Smiths and Morrissey and would often recite their lyrics with such panache it made me so envious that I wished I knew those lines by heart as well.  The lyrics were amazing but it took a while before I took a shine to the songs.  I’m glad she never gave up on me–giving me cds of her favorite songs, writing letters with lyrics on them and sharing her videos on her ipod.  Little by little I was hooked for life!  It was wonderful to have someone to share these things with.  When I was finally immersed in the music as much as she was, we dreamt of being able to watch him live and possibly be even one of the lucky few who get to hold his hand.

Because of one thing and another, we’ve lost touch over the years.  Life happens and some things we just have no control over.  I thought about her during the concert and I wished we could’ve shared that experience together.  A few days afterward I decided to reconnect with her.  I honestly didn’t expect her to write back so I was both surprised and glad to have received a happy reply.  She shared her concert stories, the best one being, “Morrissey held my hand!”.  I was so happy that her dream came true.  She deserved that moment.  A coffee date may soon follow…who knows?  Morrissey’s advice: Hold Onto Your Friends.

The exact moment of dream coming true

So I would like to dedicate this song, this video, this post, this moment to my friend.  You might be sick of hearing it already but thank you for sharing this with me.  Note to friend: Jack The Ripper was also a contender for this spot and you know how much we love that song too!


song: Now My Heart Is Full

album: Vauxhall and I

video: from carmenbozia on youtube


Morrissey live in Manila May 20, 2012

I know it’s over, still I cling…

Sure, I wrote down “See Morrissey live” in my bucket list but to be quite honest, it was one of those things that I doubt would ever happen.  Last sunday, May 13, I got to cross that off the list.  It really was a dream come true.  The best concert I’ve ever been to…and dare I say it, the best concert I’ll ever see.  I’m sure that those of us who love Morrissey do so for various reasons.  Many of us have waited years for this moment.  Truly, the man did not disappoint.  There have been many articles recently in the local papers written by fellow fans sharing their experience of that day.  And I, like them, would like to say the same thing: Thank you, Morrissey.  Thank you for being you and thank you for your songs.  They make me feel so loved.

What goes through your mind when you hear an audience sing along to the darker stuff?

Morrissey: I’m absolutely electrified. Because I live alone with those songs, and they came from the absolute edge of the emotional cliff. When a crowd sings something that really means something…for me it’s stirring. Well, it’s not stirring, no. There are no words. It’s just getting it out. And even if it’s only just for that moment when you’re in the audience on that night, you’re not alone. (2004)

If you’d like to see some beautiful photos from the concert, you can visit , , and the Morrissey live in Manila facebook page.


My first rock concert for 2011 February 7, 2011

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…is coming up this saturday, Feb. 12!  5 more days til I get my rock on!

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Super Show 3 = Super Excited! January 7, 2011

I missed watching Super Junior when they came to Manila last April.  I’m still a newbie fan you see and only started listening to them when they released their fourth album “Bonamana”.  The first time I saw the video for that song, I was hooked and I never looked back.

A few weeks ago, during a particularly slow day at work, I discovered that SuJu has confirmed their return to Manila on Feb. 26, 2011 as part of the Super Show 3 Tour.  I immediately texted my good friend and official concert tag-team partner Ava and told her (I don’t think I even asked or contemplated the thought that she might say no haha) that we were watching. I even ended the message with the words *puss in boots eyes* so she couldn’t refuse me haha!

"Can we go watch Super Junior...please???"

She did say yes on the condition that we wouldn’t be getting the outrageously priced seats…and that we also have to go see Deftones when they come here  in March (duh? of course!)  I agreed, told her I had it covered and immediately made my online reservations.  I’m not sure if there was a glitch in the matrix but after I followed the instructions online, I got an email saying thanks and that it’s  still best to give them a call and place my reservations via phone as well.  Say whuuut?!  Bit ridiculous don’t you think?  Anyway, 4 hours later I was already handing over my credit card to the woman behind the ticket booth counter.

There’ll be no more feeling “sorry, sorry” (Yes, I just had to insert that in) for myself about not seeing them live this time. Let the countdown begin.


Yes! Yess!! Nooo!!! September 6, 2010

It’s been another roller coaster week. In between trying to get my bosses their German Visas and our bedroom still looking like a warzone because of the paint & dust…I’m both feeling tired & eager for this week to come & go.  And since I haven’t written anything in a while, allow me to rant & rave on this one.  I will classify them under: “yes”, “yess” and “nooo”.
  • I’ve recently had my hair cut short again.  I’ve been trying to grow it long for the past few months–was quite successful at it I might add but last thursday, I’ve finally had it.  So I spent some time googling at work *cough*duringofficehours*cough* for some nice looking short hair cuts.  I compiled some photos and trooped on over to Freshaire at Farmers Cubao & told the nice lady to chop it off.  It was much shorter than I expected but I loved it just the same.  I will definitely keep my hair like this for a while.
  • Finally had the chance to return to my mecca…ie. recto… this past saturday.  I had to return a copy which wasn’t playing on our machine Vaness Wu’s “Autumn Concerto” and I also bought my own copy of “He’s Beautiful”.  Last August 27, I mentioned how nucking futs I am over this drama and…wait…hold on…just checking…and yes, as of today, I’m still loving it!  I don’t want to give you any ideas but I think it would be great if I were caught with a hidden camera while watching this one…because I definitely smile from ear to ear and of course I get “kilig” at the right moments!  Proof that this is a nice drama?  My friend Ava, who is usually not a koreanovela watcher–actually bought her own copy & finished it in about 2 days–as opposed to me who’s still trying to finish it! So to my fellow addict, this one’s for you:

  • And check this out–our tickets to Rain’s concert this saturday!  It’s not like Willy Wonka’s  golden ticket or even the mosh pit (mosh pit? at Rain’s concert?!)–that very special section where you’ll have a greater chance of having Rain’s sweat accidentally land on you but at least it’ll get us inside the venue.  Kris was just telling me recently, “Rain’s abs alone are worth the price of your ticket.” hahaha!


  • So for the longest time there was this debacle of whether Rain really was coming here or not. A friend was telling me that his official fan club here in manila was not informed (which I think upset them) that he had already confirmed or something like that. Well, it’s all good now because here is actual proof that Rain has landed in Manila:
  • Another event worthy of my raving is the first birthday party of Mico–my friend’s son, this past saturday. It was held at Mc Donald’s Tiendesitas & most of the gang was there to celebrate & enjoy. Honestly, I found the weather so awfully humid–which even gave me a headache on the way home–but having the chance to spend some time with my ex-officemates & their little bundles of joy, was so worth it. Maraming salamat, piglets!
  • Ok, so yesterday I happily popped in my copy of He’s Beautiful & started watching.  As soon as I got to episode 13 (unlucky 13 I might add!) *GASP* the subtitles started getting all wonky on me! Nooo!!! This can’t be! Not again! (this happened before with my other dramas) The powers that be were having their fun with me again–just when I am loving a certain drama & am almost nearing the ending, *BAM* alien subtitles appear which makes it so hard to stay focused & enjoy myself.  I mean, what happened? Everything was perfectly fine from the beginning but as soon as ep 13 starts, it’s all downhill from there. It’s like all of a sudden the person responsible for making the subtitles resigned & gave the work to someone who cannot even get the character’s names right! So there I was…deflated & disappointed…I ended up going back to

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Rocker Chicks at a K-Pop concert…something smells fishy! June 24, 2010

When I first got wind last May that “Boys Over Flowers” actor & (boyband) SS501’s leader Kim Hyun Joong will be coming to Manila, I dropped a subtle hint to my friend (& concert tag team partner) Ava if she would be kind enough to accompany me.  Note that mejo strict ang standards ni Ava so I really thought I had no chance in hell with this request.  I didn’t get any reply from her end when I posted the question on facebook.  I thought that ignoring the request was her kind way of saying “no” so I let it go and went on my Macau trip thinking that I’d probably miss the concert anyway (Apparently, I got it mixed up with another K-pop concert—UKISS).  Fast forward to last Thursday when I realized that the show hasn’t happened yet.  Right there I threw shame out the window and flat out texted her—“I want to watch this K-pop concert, PLEASE GO WITH ME!”  Truly I wasn’t expecting the reply that I got…a resounding “yes!” with the words, “I planned on watching it too kahit mag-isa!” attached.  Alright, at least we’re on the same page!

Saturday arrives and I had plans with my cousin Joseph before the 8pm show.  As I was dressing up that morning, it was definitely a no-brainer that I was going to wear my usual black shirt, jeans & trusty converse sneakers.  Apart from upholding my rocker reputation, I wanted to set myself apart from the Tweens who will surely be dressing up in the latest fashions or matching fan club shirts…plus black will help me blend in the dark!  When I finally met up with Ava & Ian, they were in black as well.  Aha!  So this was going to be a covert mission!

The "Covert" Girls

Ok, the place wasn’t packed, nor did we expect it to be.  The lower levels were modestly filled—meaning if I were the performer, the sight of the crowd down there would please me.  Besides, BEAST (short for Boys of the East Standing Tall) is a relatively new Korean boyband—they’ve only been active since October 2009—so they’re not going to attract the same crowds as the Taiwanese F4 or even Super Junior.

A little after 8pm, the lights dimmed, the lasers zapped around the venue, the smoke machines started and then…the Pop Girls entered!….the who?!?!

Ok, really now…will someone please tell me where all this bad fashion is coming from?  They did 3 songs (Thank God) and each new song signaled the stripping of an article of clothing (Oh My God!).  They’re practically in diapers and the whole thing was JUST. SO. WRONG.  Does this mean I’m too old?

The crowd modestly claps…and then suddenly goes nuts because Beast came out next.

That's Ava's boylet in the middle

Of course I didn’t understand a word they said / sang but it was entertaining & fun nonetheless.  Seeing the kids with their matching shirts, (professional looking) banners & neon light thingies swaying in the air made me reminisce about the good ‘ol NKOTB days.  Aaahh…good times, good times…

And then something happened quite unexpectedly…some dj/host goes up onstage, stops the whole K-pop fun…& starts a Q & A!…..?!?!?!  I found it annoying actually and the three of us wished that the ground would open up and swallow him whole.  On one hand, I’m pretty sure the kids didn’t mind…but I’ve been to a lot of concerts and honestly, that sort of thing really slows down the momentum of the songs/music.  A friendly reminder to the Tweens, that’s not how real concerts go.  Wait til you grow up and you’ll see what I mean.

After the Beast boys, came XLR8.  Here’s a pop quiz for you: XLR8 are:  a) an 8-man pinoy pop group, b) talents of GMA 7,  c) an addition to ava’s (not so) secret collection of young boys over 12 and below 19 years of age or d) ALL OF THE ABOVE!

Now, I have the utmost admiration & respect for these guys—shempre, I’ve heard nothing but praises (dipped & coated with love!) from Ava & Ian.  They’re sweet, nice guys looking to carve their names in pinoy pop music. But I’m sure both Ava & Ian would agree…they’re not going to get any more love & respect if they continue wearing these GLITTERY LAMBAT OUTFITS…WITH HOODIES & HAMMER PANTS!!!! (for the closing number they wore blah brown outfits. Ava says, “First lambat…and now, ano yan…SAKO?!?!”)

Below is Ava’s boylet in the red shirt (underneath that glittery lambat). His name is Hideaki or Aki for short.  Yes, legit born & bred in Japan! (na half pinoy)

Again, the kids modestly clap…but we started to panic a bit because their last number wasn’t even done when the girls started screaming for Kim Hyun Joong.  I thought there was going to be bloodshed.

Dressed in immaculate white, he finally enters the stage …from the ground up, via a trap door…impressive, since I’ve never been to a concert where that’s been done before.  Honestly, he’s not my favorite Korean F4 member…but…dang was he a cutie!  Even Ava wasn’t immune.  It was quite funny because before that night, she can never remember any names of Korean actors/singers.  To her, they were all “Kim Sam Soon”—which is the name of a female character in a telenovela entitled, “My name is Kim Sam Soon.”  But after seeing Hyun Joong, wala na…naka tatak na sa utak ni Ava. Try and surprise her one time…”Ava, anong pangalan ng cutie Korean boy na pinanood mo?” Sagot: Kim Hyun Joong! Mabilis pa sa alas kwatro!

That effing host goes up on stage again…twice pa during Hyun Joong’s entire set. One was for another Q & A.  Why is it that pinoy hosts (the wrong hosts in my opinion) always asks the most stupid questions.  My favorite that night was, “You have a lot of beautiful Filipino fans in the audience, would you ever consider having a Filipina girlfriend?” ….?!?!?!?…Haller?! Do you honestly think he would say NO?! The guy looked shy & awkward enough as it is, let’s not badger him with questions that would make him feel even more uncomfortable.

The second time he came up, he brought Gelli De Belen & Candy Pangilinan (?!?!?!) with a birthday cake and they encouraged the crowd to sing him Happy Birthday because it was his birthday a few days earlier.  I thought that was pretty sweet…I’d seen that done during one of the WWE shows in Manila and another during the first Incubus concert.  But…how Gelli & Candy had the privilege of doing that, stumps me.

Though he started with ballads, the tempo picked up when he did some fast songs & brought out his own back-up dancers.  I loved this part because I was so used to seeing him on Boys Over Flowers playing Mr. Unrequited…the dude can dance! (and then I remembered na  leader nga pala sha ng boyband…duh!)

The finale of the show saw all the artists and the kids from the charity organization coming together to do a rendition of Michael Jackson’s “Heal the world.” I’ll stop right there and only add that the Beast boys were so cute because they also did the actions being done by the little kids.

All in all it was a fun evening.  I’m glad to have been there to witness it.  Thanks to Ava & Ian!

Now Universe…is there any way you could bring all the other Korean / Japanese cuties to our shores?  But before you do, please exterminate first idiot hosts who ask stupid questions.


Partying with Dead Popstars May 22, 2010


Route 196

Tonight I went to my second gig ever.  Dead Popstars played at Route 196 along Katipunan Avenue to celebrate Morrissey’s birthday.  The place was jam packed with fellow Smiths fans…there were even 3 brits at the gig…I knew they were brits because they stood in front of me & I could hear their accents! *awesome!*  I went with my super friend Ava & her sister Anna.

They started playing at around 11pm and opened with the song “Shoplifters of the world unite!”…the same words printed on the shirt of lead singer Pogz.  He looked very much like Moz, circa 1980’s that night…complete with the gel-ed  hair & nerdy glasses.

My dodgy shot of Pogz-damn it sucks to be short!

They played for a solid 1.5 hours!  No intermission whatsoever.  Everyone rocked out to songs like: There is a light that never goes out, Ask, Everyday is like sunday, The last of the famous international playboys, Still ill, This charming man, The more you ignore me the closer I get, Panic, First of the gang to die, We hate it when our friends become successful and loads more!

I had 2 beers (I know it’s not much but it’s a first for me!), stood up the whole night, screamed & sang my lungs out, danced, was all sweaty, couldn’t breathe properly & the dude next to me kept screaming “pop! dead! stars! well i wonder! new wave naman!” the entire night…but I didn’t care. It was really nice seeing other people show their love for Moz.  There was even a kid there (about 10 years old) with a Smiths shirt on who came with his mom!

I’ve never seen Morrissey live but tonight, I felt like I had the next best thing.  Dead Popstars rock and Pogz you rule! (it was cute how everyone was greeting him “happy birthday”)

Can’t wait for the next gig!


The official & obligatory concert photo.